I thinking about the dead and the myriad as if they perched onward my shoulder all the time talking in my ear-though I can't hear them.
I thinking about the dead and the myriad as if they perched onward my shoulder all the time talking in my ear-though I can't hear them, stuck here in the ghetto of the living. Well then, hindrance the comfort of gloryland and angels like cats of different sizes with their fierce wings and purring disaster some semblance of faith back to me And what of my brother, dead, who clowning held a fire-arm to his head and blew himself into the nebula sac while someone cried come back . . where in the name of dust has he risen, what star claims him? Tonight, subject to the bare bulb, no wind in consequence of the dusty curtain, and nothing else the memory of the woman on the silver bus clutching packages in succession her lap who make go rounded to me and said In the nearest world I won't have to carry anything, and I almost added, Or wash my hair. And my feet will be straight again, and point forward. I should have said, I want to be in love with better. Or I should have revolveed to her so we could support together, shoulder to shoulder, mute on the contrary full of the same desire to be unburden redone as flint or air. And I wanted to say what I sometimes remembered when I was rich in remembering, to what extent even the pitted bricks on the buildings be seened brimming with love, and for what cause long it had been since I felt similar things. I wanted to make known her it was the light this side of everything and no matter what happened there would always be humming, a thin theme of divine bees, rotting thicket the buzz of those we no longer hear. Or I should have stream home and begged you to stay with me in the city of the living, below star-ash, under the roar of angels laughing and their fingers prolonged as rivers, with my bags of salt and your views like trees drawing down the light, since your name is more than half-written and mine is traced in chalk; and I could have told you What the dead know how failed I am in be in love with how much I've forgotten though I at no time again want to know the futurity and I think it's fine if the dead stay dead no matter how a great quantity [i]or[/i] amount of I miss them or all I not ever risked for them, and I saw my hand lifting into air as my hand passing between the walls of a hundred worlds at one time because the dead are better at forgiveness and I'm lousy at it, worse as the years fare on, and I deliberation it was fine not to know thus much, and now that I live on a river I should come by wet everyday, and if I want to be wrought up how the dead influence I should take up rowing. Copyright World verse Incorporated Sep/Oct 2001 Provided at ProQuest Information and Learning Company. All rights Reserved ...
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